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Sunday, March 20, 2005

Caught Hitch at GV Marina yesterday. Major revamp going on there. It better be good cos i'm sick of all the shopping malls in town. But i guess the tenants will be just the same as what i see in other malls. Boring. And it seems that there is going to be a storey for teenagers, think Annex at Heeren or Edge at Bugi Junction, As if i need more reminders that i'm no longer young.

The job of a date doctor is not to cheat, but to create opportunity. Could a potential partner be left unnoticed cos he/she is not your ideal at first sight? Hmmm, let me think of pple whom i have met over the years. Haha.

Notice that the date doctor only has male patients. Does that imply that guys are totally clueless nowadays when it comes to wooing the gals? Or is it because the date doctor's wonders won't work on guys cos they won't be bothered with gals who are not physically attractive? Would we have doubts if the storyline is about how a not-so-perfect gal get hitched with an heir instead of how a not-so-perfect guy get hitched with an heiress. I certainly will. Haha.

Liberated at 3/20/2005 10:09:00 PM

Monday, March 07, 2005

saw this over the internet, kinda relate to it. wonder does it apply to all of us. my comments are in orange.

"Being Twenty-Something"

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

This is kinda true. Old friends are those that u can rely on. Not all old friends though. Sometimes i really regret treating my friends lousily, getting impatient over the slightest matter. I realised my mistakes. :p

You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

This is even more accurate. I'm not afraid of starting at the bottom but I really can't see where i will be in a year or two. I can't even think of a job whereby i can hop to with my experience. I'm always dumbfounded when asked what my job scope is. Cos all i do now is make phone calls, answer occasional phone queries, prepare statistical reports, wait for instructions from supervisors and that's about it. Feel embarassed that i can't even give a proper answer for my job scope, given that i have been working for 6 months. Sighz.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused.

Have been questioning myself on this job now and then. Not that i really hate the job, but the corporate world is really scary. You can't afford to make any mistakes at work. Even if it's not entirely your fault, pple will push the blame on you. No one will cover up anyone at work, except if the anyone is the boss. What do they gain by doing this. Please be reminded of bad karma. Wait till u all make a mistake one day. Haha.

When given constant reminder to start learning new things, i dun even dare to say that the tutor seems busy, so as not to be seen as badmouthing. Gotta swallow my words out of goodwill, how foolish ah. But maintaining a good working relationship is of utmost importance in the office, at least in my opinion. I dun want to sound manipulative but when u just start out in a job, u need constant help, be it from a clerk or a higher-ranking officer. Getting blacklisted by your colleagues will be disadvantageous. Feel so pathetic.

The most important lesson is do not expect others to reciprocate. You are always willing to teach others does not mean others will do the same for you. You try to cover up for others' mistakes does not mean others will do the same for you. Smarten up, gal.

Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.

yes, where's Mr Right? I'm still waiting.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

I'll get out of the crisis, by the time i step into mid-life crisis. Haha.

Liberated at 3/07/2005 09:32:00 PM